Thursday, July 20, 2006; my horrible life
i just came back from school.
and i almost walked home just now.
cause i forgot my ez link.
if i didnt dig out 1.70 of coins.
i would have walked home.
But from this incident i realise.
When in trouble.. its not my parents that would help me.
Its my friends.
I called my mom before that and told her i forgot my ez link.
so i need to cab home cause no other choice.
and she started nagging at how irresponsible i am and all.
then i said fine.
i will walk home.
i hang the phone. and she never did call back to check on me.
great.
that's how nice my mom is.
i told beishan.
and she immediately ask me get help somewhere.
since i was stranded at bukit panjang she asked me to call huiteng.
and she wanted to help.
thanks a lot guys.
i love you all so much.
even a friend would help.
i dun understand why my family members wun.
i just dun.
hmm. i dunno what i did to deserve this kind of family.
but i did.
everyday.
i go home.
all i do is stay in my room.
in front of the computer.
never even go out.
never even do anything else in the house.
that's all i do.
that's a routine.
normal parents would ask.
girl you eaten? wanna eat? i help you take?
girl you do your homework like this and stuff.
but for 5 long years.
my parents have never asked this question.
if u tell me they care.
why dun they ask.
they keep telling me they are tired of me being a burden to them.
they say they find me irritating.
they say i make them worry to much.
so i tell them.
i didnt ask you to give birth to me.
if u hadnt had me.
you wouldnt need to worry
i wouldnt be a burden.
why did u bring me to this world then if you cant take care of me properly.
you are only bringing torture to me
i dun need all this crap.
ive had enough.
i cant wait to graduate.
cause
den i will be working.
and that means seeing lesser of their face.
and im glad.
and now i cant wait for attachment.
cause den.
i wun see more of them.
im not looking to hols.
i dun wan to stay in this hell.
aishah
I'll quit my ramblings XD {Thursday, July 20, 2006 }