Friday, July 14, 2006; dissappointed
i'm dissappointed.
i'm dissappointed because whatever i have planned.
has gone down the drain.
i'm dissappointed.
cause i thought it would be a zhuixing holiday
who knows it turn out to be a saulin and me holiday.
i and saulin are prepared for the worst.
we know.
its going to be difficult for us.
can you imagine only two girls.
only two girls.
at malaysia.
chasing 56.
we still need to do so many things.
but its only between the two of us
dun say sorry.
cause its not helping.
you may be pissed at me for saying this
but
i think i have the right.
considering how hard it is to get information
and tickets.
i think i have the right to get angry.
i just feel that you are not responsible enough.
if you know from the start you cant go.
dun give me that glimpse of hope.
cause in the end when you cant go.
im the one who suffers.
cause im the one who planned it all.
suan ler.
i say all this also.
end up.
people scold me.
get angry at me.
shoot me.
thanks a lot.
for getting me high and happy for no reason.
i just feel that these few days.
talking about 56 to some of the fans.
has been a torture.
has been a dissappointment.
but well its not my first time
getting upset over undecisive fans.
at least next time i will learn to not be
so hopeful about anything.
cause i've tasted my own medicine
for this upcoming trip.
and
i really wanna say.
if these few words...
"i dun like 56 anymore i think"
can come out so easily from your mouth.
then you are not worth to be a fan.
i pray i dun turn to be like this.
even if its coming.
maybe i hope.
only in ten years time
i know its possible.
almost four years already.
To SAULIN:
thanks. maybe we met a little late. but. ive never regretted knowing you as a friend.
i believe you are the only one who actually like 56 the way i do. i believe you are the only one who will really put in the effort and try your best. thanks a lot. for knowing and understanding me. love ya.
aishah sun.
I'll quit my ramblings XD {Friday, July 14, 2006 }