Wednesday, June 28, 2006; c o u n t d o w n s
9 more days to end of A T T A C H M E N T. C H E N Y I.
36 days ever since i saw S U N X I E Z H I. 5 5 6 6
45 more days to Z H U I X I N G' S holiday.
its wednesday.
11.04PM.
i just came back H O M E.
from hell.
yes.
ATTACHMENT WAS HELL.
today especially.
to be precised.
one of the worst ever. not like other days were a breeze. but today was especially gruelling to me. i have never had a worst afternoon shift ever. EVER.
WARD 3. ALEXANDRA HOSPITAL.
is shit.
pure shit.
heavenly shit.
people there are full of shit.
i do not D I S L I K E them.
i H A T E them. to the core.
i H A T E the staff nurses there.
this ward spoils the entire image of alexandra hospital. i had always enjoyed my few attachment there. and its not cause of dr poh. other ward staff are more approachable. but they. they dun even give us an opprtunity to learn. like W T F. if you dun teach us now. when you grow older you will suffer in our care. cause its your fault that we dun do the right things. its your fault that we do not get to have the experience and hands on that we actually need.
IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT.
FREAKS.
AARGH.
FINE. i know i'm super pissed now.
if i'm not bonded i think.
i would have quit this course long ago.
i dun like doubting what i do.
REALLY.
i'm suppose to be happy about what i do.
but why am i NOT?
is this really something i really want to do my whole life?
if it is.
how come i do not feel the passion at all.
HOW COME?
was it a wrong choice?
even if it is.
i cant do anything about it.
i cant.
not until 5 years later.
till i finish my bond.
i SWEAR i'll never take any scholarships ever.
EVER.
for now.
i think i better sleep.
to be able to handle
HELL
tomorrow.
tomorrow is a better day.
yeah right.
just get it over and done with.
7 more days of TORTURE.
I'll quit my ramblings XD {Wednesday, June 28, 2006 }