Thursday, June 29, 2006; i'm stupid
right now.
i feel dumb.
i feel stupid.
cause i realise.
i study and i dun study.
its the same.
i will still fail.
and.
i feel like giving up.
cause i am dumb
and stupid.
so far.
i've failed.
nursing research.
and
nursing science 1.2
so far
i've only passed
pharmacology
and the other two subjects
i still dunno.
i think i can just dun go
school or something.
considering the fact
that i am dumb
and stupid.
no wonder even people at work
scold me.
no wonder.
its cause i'm stupid.
this week been horrible for me
one of those weeks.
where you would just want to
hide ur head under the pillow forever.
this week is one of those kind of weeks.
study so hard.
dun understand anything.
cause.
i'm slow
dumb and
plain stupid.
i made it this far cause
all my results are all borderline.
and its like the next moment.
before i know it i die.
i cant be bothered already
dun tell me to not give up.
cause you dunno the situation.
you dunno the situation of
having friends that are way smarter than you
i'm stressed.
and right now.
i dun feel like doing anything.
not even go to work tomorrow.
i just feel like crying.
cause i feel stupid.
i shuden be what i am now.
cause i know.
this is not what i want to do.
for sure.
i'm not those science or maths people.
i'm those language people.
but.
i dun understand why life is so cruel to me
it doesnt let me choose.
its letting me through this torture.
this gruelling torture.
forget it.
whatever.
aishah.
I'll quit my ramblings XD {Thursday, June 29, 2006 }